Fools.
I used to pride myself with what i know, with what i understand.
It has brought me to the point where i confuse faith with knowing alot. If i didn't know, there was something wrong. If i did, i was doing okie. Knowledge was now my spiritual marker. I equated spiritual depth with amount of knowledge.
Don't get me wrong; Knowing is important.
It becomes bad when you're proud and bear fasle security based on it.
But today God humbled me during the MAD prayer meet.
I do know alot. But so what? It has hindered me, making me a person that is puffed up with knowledge, yet absolutely zero in experiential understanding. As we prayed today, God's knocking on the door of my heart was undeniable.
It is undeniable.
And so with a deep sense of sorrow that i have not felt in a long time, i prayed a prayer i believe that flowed from the depths of my heart.
"...I have put my trust in my knowledge, and have forgotten the true meaning of knowledge. Father, i want to throw all these aside, throw away the tag that i'm knowledgeble in the eyes of the world. I'll rather be a fool in the eyes of the world for You and draw near to You. I'll rather give it all up to know You in the power of Your death, and Your Resurrection. I want to be a Fool for Your sake..."
Guess this prayer really lifted a huge burden from my heart. Now i want to know God. Yes. Know Him, not just knowing about Him. I don't want facts alone; i want to know truth - and live it out.
The MAD Cell prayer meet is a special time of the gathering of the saints to simply seek God in prayer and worship. The beauty of it all is that we come with no agenda but one - to seek the face of God and to pray for one another. The worship leader can be anyone who knows how to strum a few chords. And usually we come with no songs prepared. God gives us the songs to sing. As the Spirit of God leads us, we intercede and encourage one another. It's the kind of time when we find rest and strength to carry on.
Don't get me wrong; service is important, but i must say that this MAD prayer meet has nourished me the most since we bagun meeting up. I pray that as we carry on meeting up to meet God, He'll visit us often and have communion with us. And one day, perhaps one day, we'll witness the overwhelming presence of God fall on His people, just like the day of the dedication of the Temple of Solomon.
It will happen.
As long as we keep on coming to the Table of The Lord...
It has brought me to the point where i confuse faith with knowing alot. If i didn't know, there was something wrong. If i did, i was doing okie. Knowledge was now my spiritual marker. I equated spiritual depth with amount of knowledge.
Don't get me wrong; Knowing is important.
It becomes bad when you're proud and bear fasle security based on it.
But today God humbled me during the MAD prayer meet.
I do know alot. But so what? It has hindered me, making me a person that is puffed up with knowledge, yet absolutely zero in experiential understanding. As we prayed today, God's knocking on the door of my heart was undeniable.
It is undeniable.
And so with a deep sense of sorrow that i have not felt in a long time, i prayed a prayer i believe that flowed from the depths of my heart.
"...I have put my trust in my knowledge, and have forgotten the true meaning of knowledge. Father, i want to throw all these aside, throw away the tag that i'm knowledgeble in the eyes of the world. I'll rather be a fool in the eyes of the world for You and draw near to You. I'll rather give it all up to know You in the power of Your death, and Your Resurrection. I want to be a Fool for Your sake..."
Guess this prayer really lifted a huge burden from my heart. Now i want to know God. Yes. Know Him, not just knowing about Him. I don't want facts alone; i want to know truth - and live it out.
The MAD Cell prayer meet is a special time of the gathering of the saints to simply seek God in prayer and worship. The beauty of it all is that we come with no agenda but one - to seek the face of God and to pray for one another. The worship leader can be anyone who knows how to strum a few chords. And usually we come with no songs prepared. God gives us the songs to sing. As the Spirit of God leads us, we intercede and encourage one another. It's the kind of time when we find rest and strength to carry on.
Don't get me wrong; service is important, but i must say that this MAD prayer meet has nourished me the most since we bagun meeting up. I pray that as we carry on meeting up to meet God, He'll visit us often and have communion with us. And one day, perhaps one day, we'll witness the overwhelming presence of God fall on His people, just like the day of the dedication of the Temple of Solomon.
It will happen.
As long as we keep on coming to the Table of The Lord...
posted by DoMiniC at 1/22/2006 01:13:00 AM
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