Fufillment
I think i got the spelling right. How you hate it when there are certain times when you just can't get the right word, right grammer, or the right spelling. I get this all the time, and it does irks me.
It's been a hard 9 days in camp, and in the beginning you don't really miss home. And when it's the weekends, and i realized that i should be in church, yet i'm playing a game of mindless RISK with Sulaiman, Sam Mok and Aidan... I should be in church, then suddenly i find myself in the dusty IPE store, shifting thru endless stores and catching a flu in the process. I should be in church when i feel the frustration and agony of trying to create something out of nothing.
But nevertheless i cannot dictate what should happen and what should not. But what i can do is to take it like a man.
It wasn't easy. Soon the feeling of homesickness gave way to a certain kind of indifference, and when i had the chance to go home for juz one night, i didn't. Instead i went out with the guys and with my best efforts try to enjoy and unwind. It didn't work, as we walked the streets of Toa Payoh - so near to home, yet so far. On the very last day (Tuesday) i was completely numb, and as i returned home. To see my bedroom again brought no joy to me, well at least i was glad to see my mom and dad again.
This feeling has haunted me for a long time, even as i tried to unwind with a game of Rome Total War, it didn't really fill the void in me. I decided to go for a walk outside in the civilian world, and i made my way down to PS to meet Shian and the rest of the guys. Caught the movie Underworld Evolution and then hopped down to Manhattan Fish Market to grab a bite. The whole gathering ended with a nice soya bean milk getaway at Middle Road, and then it was home for me. I bought two CDs today, Behold the Lamb of God by Andrew Peterson, and The Mission Bell by Delirious. Behold the Lamb of God is good stuff, especially since no one has heard about it. It's in such rare CDs that i find treasures... Delirious wasn't as good as i thought it would be. I guess they call it maturity in song writing, but i still like their originals like Did You Feel The Mountain Tremble...
My point is, after all these activities, i still feel lethargic - i don't know why.
And then i come to realise... It's been a long time since i took a plunge into God's presence...
So here i go.
"Jump on three!!!"
"Yes sir!"
It's been a hard 9 days in camp, and in the beginning you don't really miss home. And when it's the weekends, and i realized that i should be in church, yet i'm playing a game of mindless RISK with Sulaiman, Sam Mok and Aidan... I should be in church, then suddenly i find myself in the dusty IPE store, shifting thru endless stores and catching a flu in the process. I should be in church when i feel the frustration and agony of trying to create something out of nothing.
But nevertheless i cannot dictate what should happen and what should not. But what i can do is to take it like a man.
It wasn't easy. Soon the feeling of homesickness gave way to a certain kind of indifference, and when i had the chance to go home for juz one night, i didn't. Instead i went out with the guys and with my best efforts try to enjoy and unwind. It didn't work, as we walked the streets of Toa Payoh - so near to home, yet so far. On the very last day (Tuesday) i was completely numb, and as i returned home. To see my bedroom again brought no joy to me, well at least i was glad to see my mom and dad again.
This feeling has haunted me for a long time, even as i tried to unwind with a game of Rome Total War, it didn't really fill the void in me. I decided to go for a walk outside in the civilian world, and i made my way down to PS to meet Shian and the rest of the guys. Caught the movie Underworld Evolution and then hopped down to Manhattan Fish Market to grab a bite. The whole gathering ended with a nice soya bean milk getaway at Middle Road, and then it was home for me. I bought two CDs today, Behold the Lamb of God by Andrew Peterson, and The Mission Bell by Delirious. Behold the Lamb of God is good stuff, especially since no one has heard about it. It's in such rare CDs that i find treasures... Delirious wasn't as good as i thought it would be. I guess they call it maturity in song writing, but i still like their originals like Did You Feel The Mountain Tremble...
My point is, after all these activities, i still feel lethargic - i don't know why.
And then i come to realise... It's been a long time since i took a plunge into God's presence...
So here i go.
"Jump on three!!!"
"Yes sir!"
posted by DoMiniC at 3/02/2006 12:00:00 AM
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