Peace.

Igitur qui desiderat pacem, praeparet bellum

If you desire peace, prepare for war. - Vegetius

It seems you will never ever be able to separate Dom from war. Sad that my interests lies not in those widely accepted by social norms, except for a few like-minded friends. I'm teachnically on a "war fast" now, to prove that war is not an idol in my life. Yeah, as weird and lame as it seems, war has always played a major part in my life. To deny that, I would be a liar.

Some of my friends are into literature. No doubt literature adds colour to their lives. Would you out it as obsession? Some are crazy about photography, now where are the accusers? People just don't get it. My interest in war goes beyond the tanks and the guns. It goes right into the heart of the matter. The very first act that evolved from the moment Cain murdered Abel; the land has been stained by blood.

I am a historian by nature, I see things based on the past, and how the actions of certain individuals can have such an impact on the masses thru the ages.

To many, Mesopotamia is just another "hard to read" word. But to historians, it is the cradle of civilization.

To many, Rome is just another city. To me, Rome is the power that has left it's legacy in our every day living, even in Literature!

I bet you didn't know that the reason why the hot air balloon was invented was so that the French army could scout out enemy positions for their artillery to strike at.

I'm pretty sure that many know nuts about the Crusades, and the impact it has on modern day relations between Christians and Muslims.

You just have no idea. Ignorance is never bliss.

You may judge me and say that I'm just ranting and misguided. But who defines "misguided ness"? Who defines a "normal" person? Do you judge me based on my interest and the things I spend time on?

It's sad that no one cares anything about the past, which is a good thing and a bad thing. I frown at how our education system produces "Intellectual Idiots" who base their success on a simple piece of paper. I do not claim to be smart, hey I'm sure someone who is reading this would be shaking his head in disbelief, putting up points to argue and rebut.

I admit it, I'm never good at writing.

So shoot me.

But I will hold true to the promise I made to my leaders. I shall refrain from talking abou war, especially at the dinner table.

Moving on to lighter, less dark topics.

I'm unwilling to hide this fact. I'm still trying to assimilate into the new cell. For almost 3 years, I have grown up in an all guys environment in cell. So it really felt weird to have members of the opposite gender listening to what I've got to say. I don't really have a social life outside of church, and the only resemblance of one is in the ARMY (another mainly male environment). And in this cell, things are much slower in this new cell (which up till now, I have totally no idea what exactly is it's name!) as compared to the "fast action" environment in MAD. So I guess it's gonna take time, a really long time.

Faces change, people change. New environment, new responsibilities, new problems.

It's not easy.

Especially with the battles that are raging in me.

And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple. - Luke 14:27