Abraham.

Imagine God telling you to sacrifice that which is most beloved to you upon the altar. That was what God commanded Abraham to do. I'm sure the pain was beyond words, yet his obedience mattered more, because God had been nothing but good and faithful. And though he may not fully understand what's going on, he knew God could be trusted, even to the point of slaying his own son.

However God intervened, He always does when there is a surrender to His will.

It was an intimate moment between God and Abraham, the only account where God "swore by Himself" to bless Abraham because of his obedience.

God does give us good gifts and blessings. However often these things must go through the furnace of sacrifice, the refining process that purifies our motives and agendas.

That's the hardest part, to lay down upon His altar that which is precious to you, the pain and agony can be excruciating.

God I know it's hard for me to give it up to You, but I know I must. It must go through Your fires of refining, or else everything will just be human. So I guess I'll wait, watch, and pray, allowing You to mold me into someone You want me to be. Things will always end up good for those who love You, this is the hope which I'm clinging onto, desperately.

Never prayed so hard in my life before...